So, I'm starting to freak out! As you may have noticed from my little countdown that I've got, Brandon is coming home soon. Brandon is coming home soon, and I feel like I have got none of the things that I had planned to have accomplished, accomplished. I feel like I have been a failure these past 2-years. I know that it's not true, because I have grown leaps and bounds, but in actual things accomplished, I don't think I've got too many THINGS done.
As of right now, Brandon is coming home in 27 days. And, within 27 days, I would like to lose 20 pounds. Do I think that it's really going to happen? Ummm... no.
I would like to patch up the relationship between Brandon's family and myself. How I'm going to do that? I honestly have no clue! I feel like everything I do with that relationship is wrong. I feel like I can never do right, and that it is just hopeless. So, fixing a relationship where both sides feel that they are right, is a little difficult. But, I am willing to admit that I am not right, in an effort to fix this relationship with them.
I need to find a job! This is a MUST! I would like to get a job, so that I can have some money for a nice down payment on a car. I need to buy a car, because Freedom died in December, in Utah. And, I'm tired of being stuck at home unable to do anything, because I don't have a car. I feel like I am in high school again, depending on everyone else to drive me places. And, also I need a car, because when Brandon gets home, I'd like to be able to drive down and see him, without having my mommy drive me (like I'm a teenager without her license).
I seriously feel like I have so much to do, and so little time to do it. I'm starting to FREAK OUT! I'm running out of time!
7 years ago
2 comments:
His fam is anxious/ nervous/ excited about his coming home too and when they see that he needs you to be part of that things will work themselves out. Don't worry about the fam until he is back. Just be yourself. Don't make changes because you think you have to, make them because they are Terri! Keep us posted in the craziness!
While you may have wanted to get some things done while Brandon was gone it's not like you had to get everything in order. You still have your whole life to grow and learn. Focus on all of the many things I know you did accomplish and don't focus on the negative. Think how much you taught me! :)
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