Terrbear and Bearic

So, I had an amazing night with a very dear friend of mine. My very good friend Eric and I went to a play/musical tonight. I had so much fun with him, and I forgot how much fun I could have with someone.


Eric and I were both EFY counselors this past summer. And, we became some of the best of friends. He liked me for a little bit, but we both realized that we were much better off as just friends. (I hate how tan he is in this picture, and how I look like a GHOST!) We spent so much time together this summer, and I feel like he is one of the few people that really understand me. I love him to death, and I'm really going to miss him during the 4 months when I am living back at home in California. But, hopefully he will get to come and visit me!

Missionaries

52,494 serving throughout the WORLD.


And the MANY girls who love and wait for them.

Aprons, Aprons, Aprons...

I've been trying to find a CUTE apron recently. One that I can bake, clean, and do everything around the house in. I know, it sounds weird, Terri... looking like a housewife, please?!? But, seriously. I have had to borrow aprons from my friends recently. (And, btw... I'm not really a fan of their aprons, just needed one to wear.)
So, I was checking out my friend Adrianne's blog, when I stumbled upon her post about an apron give away. I read the post, and I figured, why not? I clicked on the link to the "Apron Lady's" blog, and here are these ADORABLE aprons! I loved 'em. I'm definitely going to order one, but I'm going to wait until I move back out here in the fall to do so.
But, I just wanted to share with y'all her aprons. They're adorable, and I'm sure that you'll love them just as much as I have! http://epicureanstyle.typepad.com/my_weblog/


And, here's a quick little picture of one of her adorable aprons!

Two Roads Diverged in a Yellow Wood and Sorry I Could Not Travel Both

Ugh, so I promise that one of these posts, someday, will be non-emotional and it will actually be interesting for you to read. But, this is not one of them.
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I realize that I am at a crossroads in my life right now. I am stuck trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, and where I want to go.
The left turn, in this crossroad, is where my heart has been for the past 2 years (and a few months). My heart has been with Brandon Adawi. I gave it to him, and he gave me his. It's been a long, hard past 2 years, but now that I see the end in sight, I can't help but want to turn and run away. I'm so scared of what is going to happen. Things are perfect between he and I, but there are outside influences that are making things difficult. It would be easier for me to just turn and run away, run back to somewhere comfortable, run to something easy. But, is that necessarily what is good for me? I've lived my life going through things that weren't easy, and for once, when something was easy, people went and complicated things and made it not easy anymore.
I don't know if I should take this left turn, go to where my heart is, and go down that path. Or, if I should look down that road and just keep running the way that I'm going.
A friend of mine told me last night, that he was in love with me, and that he really really likes me. I was completely caught off guard. But then he said, that he knew that I couldn't love him back, or even like him back, because my head and my heart are closed. He didn't tell me that, because he wanted a reaction out of me, but he told me that because he just wanted me to know. In all actually, he just opened my eyes to how I may have treated people recently. In the past 2 years, I have closed my heart. I promised Brandon that I would, that I wouldn't let anyone steal my heart from him, let alone from me. And, maybe this is my fear talking, but maybe by me doing that, I closed off doors to great people, who I should have ended up with. Who's family will not hate me, who' will stick up for me, who will be the man that he needs to be.
I have a problem, I second guess every decision that I make. And, I'm not saying in anyway, that I do not love Brandon with all of my heart. But, what I am saying is, what if there is someone out there that loved me with all of their heart, and I was blinded by Brandon, to see that?
I have 52 days, until Brandon comes home, and until I can finally choose the path that I will travel down.


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

I Think I Miss You

I miss you
I don't know why,
Something's missing deep inside
Your heart so near
Yet far away,
So when I build a sandcastle
In the air, I create thinking
This is what You'd like,
And in the gentle waves
Lapping back and forth
I see your smile
Back and forth
In and out
Close and warm.

Leaving trails on my heart
My fingers sink into the sand,
I feel each grain
The coolness, yet as if
Not feeling, for my mind
Is not here, but there
For I like the way we care,
I can hear You stepping in the sand
behind
I don't need to turn
Your heart is already mine.

I miss you like the sand misses the wave.

I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter.

Hope is what guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.

APRIL FOOLS!!!

I know that some of you readers were expecting a BIG elaborate April Fools joke out of me this year, but I refrained.
Last year, I made a BIG joke that I was engaged. It was quite hilarious, or at least Danielle and I thought it was. But, MANY of my MG friends did not think so. We had the whole story planned out, of how the guy asked me. How he asked my dad permission before hand, and we even had our colors and date set. It was HILARIOUS! Well, this story upset MANY of my friends. To the point where they were about to pull HUGE pranks on me. I mean, I wouldn't have believed them, but still, it wasn't going to be very nice of them.
So, this year I decided that I would not pull a prank like that, again. Instead, I decided to do something a little bit different. In my ward, every Wednesday night we have "Dessert Night". I was talking with some of my friends, who are in charge of this dessert night, and they said that there weren't very many people signed up to bring desserts. I told them that I would make something and bring it, just so I could help them out. Well, this is when my plan was in motion. I decided that I would make brownies and bring them to dessert night. OK, these brownies were not going to be just any brownies, NO, they were going to be special brownies. Come on now people, I'm not that mean, they weren't going to be those kind of "special" brownies. Geez, what kind of a person do you think I am?!? The special kind of brownies that they were going to be was, they were going to be menthol blue brownies! YUM! For those of you who don't know what menthol blue does to you, if you digest it, it makes your pee turn blue/green. So, I make these special brownies. Oh, and by the way, you can't taste ANY difference in the brownies. I ate like 2 brownies, and brought the rest down to the dessert night. By the time I left the dessert night, the brownies were all gone. I was very excited! Now, I'm just waiting for the reaction!
This prank/joke I decided wasn't as serious as last year's joke. Although, last year's joke was HILARIOUS, I still laugh thinking about the reactions I got out of people. But, this prank/joke was HILARIOUS! I'm excited to do next year's joke!