Living in the Moment

So, I have been through A LOT lately. And, I realized that a lot of it has been because I have been focusing on the future more than I probably should. But, for some reason, I have always had this thought and vision that I will get married when I am 21, and then be done having kids when I am 30. But, now, I am not thinking about the future, like at all. I am finally, for once, living in the moment. I've realized that if someones family doesn't like you, and they don't do anything about it, than it's a sign of some sort. I'm not really sure what it's a sign of, but it's a sign of some sort.

Amazing Weekend

So, at the start of the weekend, I totally thought that it was going to suck! I mean, I had a HORRIBLE day on Friday, and it was not a very good start to a 3-day weekend. But, boy was I wrong! I think I had more fun this weekend than I've had most of the time that I've been in Provo. On Friday night, a very good friend of mine, Lindsay, came over. I needed a little bit of venting/girl time. Then, my new friends Mike and Chris came over and Mike had dinner with me. We all kinda hungout and chit-chatted for awhile. Then, went over to Chris and Mike's apt and watched "Casino Royale" on their projector screen. It was way fun. And, it was really good to hangout with some people, and get my mind off of the stress in my life. Later, I talked to my mom and my aunt on the phone, and they gave me some great advice and just let me vent to them.

Saturday, what a day! ha ha ha. OK, so we were supposed to have cleaning checks at 9am, so, I got up at 8:45 to finish cleaning up my stuff. Then, it was back to bed for me, until 12:30!!! In the afternoon, I went out to lunch with a very good friend from back home who was visiting. We went to Chili's and the 2 waiters were totally flirting with us, it was way funny. I really love getting to see friends from back home, and getting to talk to them for hours! ha ha ha. After we went out, I went and hungout with some more new friends of mine, Kristian, Spencer, and Steven. We went to Cafe Rio, played some Phase 10, and then went and watched a movie at the dollar theater.
On Sunday, we had church, then Kristian, Spencer, and Steven came over and had some lunch with Melissa and I. We then played Phase 10. It was so much fun. The game was probably the highest scoring game of Phase 10, that I've ever had, but it was so much fun! I got a REALLY bad migraine, and ended up falling asleep for 2&1/2 hours, before our Stake Fireside. After the Stake Fireside, I came home and slept! Thank goodness!
Monday, I had work! It was Martin Luther King Jr. Day, and I had work. It's not like it was strenuous work or anything, it was actually really fun! I was working my "second" job as a Transportation Agent for a company called West Shield Adolescent Services. I got to work with Parker, so it was pretty fun! After work, Melissa and I went and got a new frog! Later in the afternoon, I went up to Temple Square with Kristian, Steven, and Spencer. It was a LOT of fun! I even saw one of my friend's from high school's sister's there. She is serving her mission at the Temple Square mission. It was way cool seeing her! Mike came to FHE with me. His FHE was canceled, so he came to my group's. Then, we went back to his apt and watched a movie. OMG, so much fun! I honestly cannot believe how much fun the 3-day weekend was! I look forward to the next one, especially since it will be Valentine's Day!

life is going much better!

I just want to say, thank you for the words of encouragement and support, these past couple of days. I have been going through ALOT, and honestly was on the verge of a mental and emotional break down. Some people have honestly been saying some mean and rude things to me, and they made me question who I was. And, I just want to say, that I honestly know who I am. I am a daughter of God, He loves me, and knows what is best for me. I am a smart, fun loving, ambitious, adventurous, driven, focused, and motivated individual.
And, I've realized, that even though people may not like me, and may judge me for my past, they honestly don't know me. In my mind, I am a very easy going person, I can get along with anyone, and I care and love everyone.
I hope that this upcoming week is better, and that life will get a little bit easier for me. I've realized that I just need to forgive what people say. Sometimes people don't mean to be rude or hurtful when they say things, but they are. And, I need to forgive people for that, and like I said in my last post, people need to learn not to be so judgmental. I love you all, and I hope that your week is TERRIfic! Remember, that God loves you, and that he is always looking out for the best for you!

Idiot...

Do people think that I am an idiot? The past few weeks, I have had a few encounters with a few individuals that seem to think I am an idiot. Wait, no, I forgot, I'm not an idiot, I'm just an unmotivated, unfocused, noncontrolling, and undriven person. But, if you don't think I'm controlling, than you obviously haven't tried to help me out while I'm cooking, because as many of my friends have come to learn, you don't try to help Terri while she is cooking, because it is the one time that she has complete control of EVERYTHING. But, people may not think of me as motivated, focused, controlling, or driven, but that is because I don't portray them like most people who are. I know how to get what I want, and I can get it the nice way. I was taught that being nice and being polite can and will go a long way. And, in my past, it has. The other thing is, people may think that I am the ditsy, talkative, friendly, cheerleader type of person, and yes, some of these may be true, but tell me would a ditz have a 137 IQ? Would a ditz have scored in the TOP percentile, in the state, for the California High School Exit Exam? Would a ditz be able to see right through the mind games that people play? No, I don't think so.
Some people, may think that I know nothing about marriage, family, or pretty much anything, but that is kind of impossible to know NOTHING about a subject that you are raised in. No, I may not know what it is like to be married, but I am pretty sure I know how to not let a marriage fail. Being a child of divorce, especially when your mother tells you EVERYTHING about her failed marriage, I think I know a little bit about marriage. I agree that you cannot fully understand marriage until you are actually in it, but MILLIONS of other people make it work, without being in a marriage previously, so don't you think that it is possible? Sorry, I'm just kind of venting, because I'm an idiot, and I'm allowed to do that... it's my blog! If you don't like it, don't read it! lol.
My suggestion, advice, or take it as you may, is that you need to learn to get to know people. Don't JUDGE! It says in James 4:11: "Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge." Don't judge people on what they do, you need to love one another! John 13:34-35 "A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another."
As upset as I may be with these people, for the judgement which they have put on me, I love them oh so very much! I have a curse (even though some may think of it as a gift), I trust and forgive people too easily. These people may have hurt me, but I will still bring them cookies and have a nice chat with them, anytime. And once again, open myself up to be hurt.
But, basically, I just want to say, don't judge people by the appearance that they put off. I was raised to always have a smile on my face, whether I am having a good day, bad day, or whatever. I don't let people know when I am struggling, I am a quietly driven person. I have my goals, and I know exactly what I need to do to reach them. And, I'm not an idiot, I know when you're talking crap about me, and treating me like a door mat.

EFY 2009 Counselor Interview

First off, I was looking at my blog today and I realized that I hadn't posted anything in awhile. It was kind of weird looking and seeing only one post in 2009. So, I decided that I would make it two posts!

Yesterday, I had my interview to be an EFY counselor for this coming summer. I was really excited for it, but kind of nervous at the same time. Many of my friends who were counselors with me over the summer told me that I shouldn't even have to interview to be a counselor for this summer, that they should just give it to me. These comments really boosted my self-esteem, which has been a little low lately, but due to the fact that I wasn't hired to be a BC, I am still having doubts if I was a good counselor at all.

I had my interview yesterday at 1:00, and it was kind of cool, our interview group was the first interview group for the BYU-Provo sessions. Well, anyways, we went through the whole interview, and it was a little bit different than last year's interview. Last year, we were asked to come up with our own quick lesson on a principle of the gospel. So, I went to the interview with a lesson on obedience in mind. When I got there, they gave me a slip of paper with a scripture on it and told me to teach on that topic. It was kind of scary at first, but once I read the scripture and realized that it was 1Corinthians 13:8, on charity, my nerves were calmed.

I think that I did well in the interview, or atleast I hope that I did well. Lindsay Wilson (the administrator over EFY in Provo) told me that I should find out within the next few weeks, hopefully I do. I honestly cannot wait to start planning out this CRAZY summer that I will have!

Happy New Year!!!

OK, so I know that this is a little on the late side, but I just wanted to tell you all... HAPPY NEW YEAR! I have an odd feeling that this year is going to be AMAZING! I hope that those of you who made New Years resolutions will keep them past February!

I'm finally back in Provo, where it is snowing right now. I already miss the nice warm weather of Southern California, and my wonderful, amazing family! But, it is just a matter of time until I am there again!

I hope that for those of you whom I haven't seen in a while, that I get to see you more this upcoming year!