Retraction...

I would like to type a retraction for the last post that I wrote. I wrote it in anger, and that is not a good way to do anything. I'm sorry for hurting any one's feelings by it, it wasn't right. It may be how I feel, but like I said before, I need to keep my opinions to myself.

I'm sorry.

Opinions and Comments

Since this last Thursday night, when Brandon and I got engaged, we have received MANY different comments. So many people want to express our opinions to us, about what they think of us being engaged. The majority of the people have expressed their excitement for us, and have told us that they know that we will do amazing.
But, there are those few people who have chosen to express their opinions of doubt and rudeness. Well, I would like to tell you, that is RUDE! Sure, you may feel like you need to tell me that my marriage is going to fail, or you may want to write on your blog how big of a joke Brandon and my engagement is, or, you may even feel compelled to tell Brandon that I am a huge mistake and that I'm not good enough for him. Well, this is what I have to say to you about that. I don't care. Keep your opinions to yourself!
I was taught in second grade about opinions and about not always voicing what you think. Now, it is called a "word filter" but, it is the exact same thing that I was taught in second grade. If what you are thinking is going to hurt someone else, than don't say it. I have learned to say, and think, "Well, that's your opinion, not mine." So, I have learned not to be rude or mean, and not to voice my opinions about people who are doing things that I might not agree with. I have learned that that is MY opinion, and not theirs.
Brandon and I are going to do amazing. We love each other, and we both have goals set. I have people tell me how surprised they are at Brandon and my decisions and our goals. Sure, we're only 21, but we are adults and we know how to work together to achieve those goals. We don't want to be in debt and bankrupt, struggling to survive. So, we're not rushing into anything. We're going to wait until March or April (whenever our spring break is) to get married. We decided to wait so we can save money, so that we will have enough money to survive when we're first married.
I am so excited to embark on Brandon and my life together. It's going to be hard, but it is going to be so worth it. We're going to work together, so that we WILL succeed in this life. I love him, and he loves me. That's all that matters.
For those of you reading this blog, who would like to express your opinions about me and Brandon getting married, use your word filter, think about what you're saying, and think about if it is going to hurt someone else. We love our friends so much, and we look forward to sharing this journey and chapter of our lives with you!

"...she's gonna marry that boy someday."

I still feel like I am living in a dream! It is amazing that I can FINALLY say this, (I honestly thought that this day would never come) I am engaged to the man of my dreams, Brandon Alexander Adawi!
Brandon asked me last night to marry him, and I OF COURSE said YES!
Here's a rundown of how the night happened. I drove to school and found out that my class was canceled. So, I text messaged Brandon and told him that it was canceled, and he asked if he could come over and watch a movie. Of course I said yes (because I obviously love spending time with him)! He came over and we watched "P.S. I Love You". It was the first time Brandon had seen it, and I think he liked it. (Who knows though, he was probably just trying to humor me.) When the movie was over, I told him that I would just say goodnight to him there at the door. He said no, that he wanted me to walk him to his car. I walked him to his car, and we started talking about things and how I would get to see him on Saturday. He then said that he remember me mentioning a few weeks ago that girls like to get flowers every now and then, just because. He told me that he had some flowers for me in the backseat. We walked over to the other door and in there were 2 dozen red roses, and 3 white roses. He told me that the 3 white roses were special, that one represented our past, one represented our present, and one represented our future. The one that represented our future he said was extra special, that there was a string attached. (And, there literally was a string attached!) Attached to the other end of the string, was a ring box. He got the ring box and got on one knee and asked me to marry him!
Somebody pinch me, because I feel like I'm still dreaming. Can this really be happening?!? I love him so much, and I'm glad that things are working for us!
We don't have a date set yet, but the date will hopefully be soon to come! And, pictures will be soon to come too! The ring is GORGEOUS, just what I wanted!
"Terri's young and then she just don't care, she'd follow Brandon anywhere. She's in love with the boy, she's in love with the boy. What's meant to be will always find a way, she's gonna marry that boy someday."

As school starts, another journey begins

School started on Tuesday night for me. That was an experience, going back to Mt. San Antonio College, going back to a school that I tried so hard to get away from. I'm not going to lie, I was not thrilled about going to class on Tuesday night. I had to try and add a math class, that I didn't want to take, plus I had to leave Disneyland early. (Pictures to be posted in the near future) But, I went to class, and the professor said that he would not be adding anyone until next Tuesday. That is good, and bad at the same time. Good because it will give me a better chance of being added, because most likely, a majority of the students will not come back. Bad because if they all do come back, it could be a week of class time wasted. The class was VERY easy, and VERY boring (oh yay!).
Well, then last night (Wednesday night) I went to Mt. SAC to try and add two more classes. An online Philosophy class and a Poli Sci class. I was able to add both YAY! The philosophy class, I wish was an actual class and not an online class. The professor, David Lane, was awesome. He was hilarious and opened my mind to a lot of things. Like, why am I going to school? Why does school cost so much? Do professors really know more than we do? (The answer to that question is no... everyone has access to the same information... the Internet... so no one can actually know more than another person. Yes, someone may be skilled in that area, but the amount of information that professors, doctors, teachers, or whatever you want to call them have is the same.) My poli sci class is going to be interesting, to say the least. The professor laughs HYSTERICALLY. Like, he will say something funny, wait for a response, and then he will start cracking up. He made some comment about polygamy, during class last night, and looked right at me when he said it. Did he know I am Mormon? I doubt it, but either way it was pretty hilarious. The class is 3 hours long, and by the time it was over my butt was asleep!
As much as I may not being looking forward to school, I am definitely looking forward to my future. And, obviously going to school is a BIG step in the right direction, for my future. I go to school Tuesday-Thursday nights from 7-10ish (the ending time is different on Tuesday & Thursday than it is on Wednesday). I start my new job at: School Portraits by Adams Photography in two weeks. I'm VERY excited about that.
I promise I'm going to do better at keeping this blog up to date. Feel free to leave a comment here and there... I will definitely be better at updating, if I know that people are commenting and reading. What's the point in me writing something if no one's going to read it... right? Well, I love you all tons, and I've gotta finish setting up my mom's classroom.
Love,
Terri Ann

Don't you wish they all could be California girls?

Well, recently, I realized that that is exactly what people wish for. Ok, or maybe that's just what I hope that everyone wishes for, oh well, it doesn't really matter anyways.

I feel like I have been horrible lately, I have been slacking with keeping this thing updated. I feel like I am always running a mile a minute, but honestly, I wonder what I do with all of my time.

I figured that I should let everyone know, I will be staying a TRUE California girl, at least until January. After much deliberation, I decided to stay in California for this fall semester. My mom gave me an offer that I chose not to refuse. Brandon also helped me make the choice to stay.

I will be living in Chino, for the next 4 months, with my mom. I'm going to be going back to Mt. SAC (Mt. San Antonio College), and I will also be working for a school portraits photography studio. I get to do a bunch of office work, and organize the picture orders and what not. I'm really excited to be staying.

I moved back in with my mom on Sunday night, and by Monday afternoon, I already had a job. I'm excited for this semester, and I hope that things will work out as planned between Brandon and myself. But, honestly, these days we can never tell. I love you all. And, for those of you who are still in Provo, UT... don't worry, I will be back. And, I'm going to try and visit at least once during the semester. <3

It's Kinda Crazy!

So, it's kind of crazy, but it was over a month ago that I last updated my blog. I can't believe it! I used to be so good at updating it, but these days, I guess I've got a little bit more on my plate than normal.

I will try and give you a brief update of things:
-Things with Brandon are... eh. I honestly don't know how things are going. The last post I made, I talked about how everything was, and how I was head over heels, madly in love with him. Well, I still do love him, but, as my Nana said it, "The twinkle in your eye is gone." And, it's true. I told him last night, that I don't feel special to him anymore. And, when people don't feel special to someone, it makes them not want to spend time with them. Because, why spend your time with something or someone who you do not feel complete and total joy? Well, I'm in the process of getting things back on track. I've expressed my concerns to him, so I hope that WE can work on it.
-I am working around 20-25 hours a week at California Pizza Kitchen, and I LOVE it! I'm a host right now, but will hopefully, someday, move up to a server. I really enjoy my time at work. And, it's kind of sad, sometimes I enjoy time at work more than I enjoy time with Brandon. I think, the deal with Brandon is, that it's not what either of us expected so, "We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so we can have the life that He planned for us." Anyways, work is great. If you're ever in the Temecula area, come in and visit me!
-The Singles Branch is GREAT! We have a statewide YSA Conference coming up in a few weeks, and it's going to be really fun. It's kind of going to be like a mini-EFY, but for YSAs. I have made a lot of new friends this summer, through the branch, and I'm so grateful for that. I've made some new friends, that I will hopefully be able to hold on to in Provo.

I guess that that's really all that has been going on in my Big Adventure called Life. I will try and keep y'all better posted. But, we'll see how it goes (with as busy as I am). lol. Love ya!